Yeah, I know, I’m early. I’m early for everything this time of year. Usually my Christmas gifts are wrapped on Halloween. (I have an ‘early December kid’, so when I was pregnant with him, I did things early..and it stuck.)
So I’m already thinking…obsessing…over the new year.
Talking with my CP this morning, I realised I’ve angsted about the new baby’s arrival a lot, but haven’t let myself enjoy the fact of having a sweet cuddly little powder-smelling baby. Mainly because once that baby’s in my arms…well, I won’t be able to think of much else 
Until then, though…I keep wondering…how is it going to affect my writing? Am I going to disappear off the Internet entirely? Am I going to find I still have an hour a day to devote to building my wordcount? Am I going to have no interest in writing again until this one is two?
There are no answers to that. I’m stockpiling stories right now, trying to finish as many as possible before my due date so I can keep up with submissions and releases even if I’m not writing at all for a bit.
But I wonder…(worry)…what this is going to be like.
Hubby is ready with very helpful comments like:
Of course I’ll help you out…if you want to write for one hour a day…maybe I’ll get to hold the baby then?
So I guess I’ll keep on keeping on, and figure out how to make it all work. Til then, though, I’ll just keep the pressure on so I can enjoy my maternity leave.
Anyone else feel the same concerns when leaving any other job? Or are you just happy to have the time off?
December 10th, 2007 at 1:50 pm
Okay, do as I say. Deep, cleansing breath, in through the nose, out through the mouth. Now, repeat after me: It’s all good and it will all work out! I know it is the hormones, but life has a way of working itself out just the way it is supposed to