I blogged about this on my personal blog, but it so upset me I thought I’d revisit it here. Obsessive much? No. Not at all.
I’m officially 21.5 weeks pregnant now. Which basically means I’m big enough that people look twice to make sure I’m preggers and not just stuffed full of Halloween candy. And I’m emotional.
All the time.
CSI last night? Totally pissed me off. Criminal Minds, when they shot one of my favey characters? Had me crowing at the brilliance of the writers. Not only am I emotional, I’m a little moodily-unstable.
So I had this dream…to sum up: my husband and I were marrying another woman. Only…I couldn’t stand the witch…and when she went to kiss MY husband, I have to tell you, Hell Hounds would’ve been impressed by the dirty look I managed. Needless to say, the wedding was called off.
Of course, Jen asked me where I thought this dream came from. What is my subconscious DOING back there, anyway?
I really don’t want to know. I mean, thanks but no thanks. If some dark, dusty corner of my mind is doing freaky-dirty things, I don’t need to know about it up here on the conscious level.
I’d love it if any of you had a way to tell me which moods are related to pregnancy hormones, and which ones are just ‘normal writer weirdness’.
Since I doubt any of you have the magic answer…how about this…what TV show/commercial, book, song…whatever…is guaranteed to make you burst into tears, even when you know it shouldn’t? Or have you had A Dream like the one I mentioned…one which probably shouldn’t bother you all that much, but still gets under your skin and festers?
Tell me all about it. I’ll share chocolate, and we’ll stuff Freud’s couch up his subconscious so no there’s no fear of being analyzed 
November 16th, 2007 at 2:59 pm
This is so me. TV shows have a scary effect on my emotions. Remember when Vaughan died in Alias? (well, he didn’t actually die. But we all thought he did)I bawled when that happened. And when Buffy ended and Anya died. And when Brennan saw that video of her mother on Bones. And when Friends came to an end.
I could go on and on and on….lol
November 16th, 2007 at 3:02 pm
When I was preggers, I finally figured out that no mood, feeling, or other emotional response was left unmolested by hormones. Sure, some were genuiely mine, but the hormones make them at least fifty times worse. Good ideas became Amazingly Great Ideas. Sad things? Pits of Emotional Woe.
I cried at Godzilla, okay? I cried for three days after I saw it. You couldn’t even say the word to me without me tearing up.
Your dream sounds pretty normal, though. Worries about an “interloper” into your marriage, in other words, the baby, and wondering how you’ll feel about him/her. And the very female worry that he might not love you as much when you’ve had a child and you’re not just his wife, but a mommy. I got the same kinds of dreams, and I felt like you do. Leave that emotional baggage back there. I don’t want it!
Hang in there!
November 16th, 2007 at 3:09 pm
lol Ava, at least it was death, which is a pretty heavy experience…I cried at long distance commercials with my first. Sappy, cheesy, awful…and I bawled. *shaking head*
Cassandra, the sad fact is, this is our FOURTH child. I mean, if I don’t know how he’ll deal with interlopers at this point…
But oh, Amen on the Pits of Despair v. Bestestest Idea Ever. I’ve begun counting on my hubby to talk me down from those. “No, honey, painting the baby’s room right this second is probably not going to be good. It is two in the morning, for one…
I’m incredibly grateful for my crit group when it comes to my writing, for the same reasons…;)
November 16th, 2007 at 6:00 pm
Hallmark commercials would have me bawling every time they came on. And those RESPECT commercials, where the guy gives up his seat or walks someone across the street would just have me howling. It was awful. I went to see Love Letters and sobbed through the entire thing. Embarrassing to say the least.
I would have odd dreams, where the baby turned into a doll, or vice-versa…or I’d be out and about and forget I had a baby along and leave it somewhere. I’d wake up in a panic and realize I hadn’t even HAD the baby yet. Whew!
I think weird dreams and emotions are normal — and with that in mind, as I’m approaching my late 40s, I’m SOOOOO looking forward to “the change”….grrr….
November 16th, 2007 at 8:29 pm
I think Gwen thinks your dream means you’re gonna have a girl.
LOL
And I dont need to be pregnant-I get WAY too involved in whats going on in tv land.
And coffee and kodak commercials always make me bawl.
November 16th, 2007 at 8:31 pm
Ugh, I hear you. Lifetime movies will make me cry. Hate those damn things.
Sometimes, I WANT a good cry. Then, I put in “So Proudly We Hail”(with Claudette Colbert) or “Steel Magnolias”.
I don’t like hormones.