I was going to respond in comments, but it got so long I thought I’d just do another post lol!

Thank you everyone for your responses. First let me say, I won’t stop writing. Even during my 60-80 hour week Army days I wrote. I wrote crap, but I wrote dammit lol. Submitting though, I’m not sure about except what I already have promised. And it will be done this weekend.

I think the biggest problem is expectations. Army Guy seems to think I should go do the cubical rat thing which is freaking hilarious considering he’d never survive it. The really fucked up thing is as soon as I get a job he’s going to get pissy as all hell cuz I’m not around when he wants me here. You just can’t have it both ways.

The biggest problem is the full time thing though. A full time job, a FULL TIME husband (i.e. NEEDY), and three kids will suck all my creativity right outta my brain. Been there, done that.

And this is what really pisses me off. He seems to think it’s perfectly reasonable for me to work full time at a job I hate so he can work a job he loves that pays shit. Someone please explain that shit to me.

So through the day I’ve (thank Gawd) moved from depressed to pissed off. I have a second interview at a restaurant tomorrow. I’m pretty sure I’m gonna get this job. And that’s cool. It’s part time during school hours…I don’t write then anyway. And frankly I can make more money part time waiting on tables than I can in any office in this town. Sad when a waitress makes more than a paralegal isn’t it? So he’s not thrilled with the kind of job it is, but he’ll get the fuck over it. If I have to compromise so does he.

As for my mother, I’m not sure what her story is. I know she absolutely will not paint anymore. My brother and I have both asked her to do portraits of our kids and she refuses. She will sketch them, and I have tons of sketches from over the years. But she didn’t even do any sketches until Emma Rose was born. And they’re awesome. Regular printer paper and number two pencils. I was thinking about giving her good paper and charcoal for Christmas but I’m too chicken lol. Whatever her reasons, she keeps them to herself and she loves her job so maybe she just doesn’t feel the loss.

Again a big thanks to y’all who responded. I’m not going anywhere but I may go underground for a little while.

3 Responses to “Thanks Y’all”

1. Jennifer McKenzie Says:
   August 24th, 2007 at 8:28 am

   Hey Lori, let me say one more thing about this. Sometimes my expectations are too high.
   Some how, I think that I should be banging out 5K a day because there was a time I could do that.
   Things have changed now. I have a temp job and you’re right, it DOES suck the creativity down the drain. BUT it also makes me ITCH to write.
   So when I have a chance to sit down and get some writing done, I fucking DO IT!!!!!
   Whatever happens, you can do this. And we’ll stand behind you, help you out and be there for you.
   *hugs*

2. Loribelle Hunt Says:
   August 24th, 2007 at 1:37 pm

   Thanks, Jen. I don’t know what I’d do without y’all.

3. Lyric James Says:
   August 25th, 2007 at 12:31 pm

   Hooray for you Lori! Glad you’re not giving it up and you’ve found a way to bring a some $ in the house too, even if it’s not where the hubby wants you to work. Like you said, he’ll get over it.

   We’re always here for you!